Whenever I come across a cross-section in my life, which means I have to make a significant choice which will absolutely affect my future life, something really terrible will come up. Why, I cannot understand this phenomenon extremely! Isn't it unfair? Or maybe the god treats me much more strictly than others because he wants to give me some important task to change this world? It is better for me to think in this way although it looks like self-comfort somewhat. My god, what do you really want me to do and to be? Can you just leave me alone and give me some chance to take my time to face and fix my own problem? Why do you always want to butt in leaving me uncomfortable and despair? Please, please tell me directly.

I know, I know I have done a lot of things which are meaningless and gully. I am always lingering and bogging myself and waste my time, or maybe, your time exactly. You want to give me a bang which will make me realize how awful my life is, do you? That will be a good reason to torture me like this, each time, every key moment. But whatever you do, I won't give up. The person who has made up his mind to win will never say impossible, you know that? Even if I wander and hesitate too often, the future is still on my hand. After all this things, I will renascence. So thank you to give me so many troubles, thank you~